Season of Disruption
Season of Disruption
Diagnosis: This season is often seen in the mist of damage falling everywhere you turn. This could be a family member’s death paired with loss of a job or income, paired with a form of unexpected event that caused higher emotional stress.
Proverbs 3:5-12; 16:4,7
Romans 8:26-28; 16:20
Personal: This season has occurred during multiple points in my college career. A week before I moved to the campus of the University of Texas, I attended my grandmother’s funeral. Through my entire life, my grandmother has been a second mother to me. She was there for all of my accomplishments, gave me advice and I cannot remember me being away from her or not seeing her more than 3 days. I was excited to make this next step in my life, but this seemed to be such a difficult adjustment. Once coming to UT, I initially had several issues with my financial aid causing me to start my semester off constantly having to go to the financial aid office and fill out more and more documentation and pay a lot of money for things upfront. All while adjusting to college and not having a job yet. Now in my senior year of college, I experienced another death in my family of my great aunt. When this occurred, not only was I trying to balance my grades, but I was also working 30+ hours per week at my job, trying to maintain my deadlines for my organizations, but also trying to secure a job post graduation. I was also dealing with my first semester in college without a car which was causing me a great deal of stress. I was feeling an exasperating amount of stress and my confidence in my future was a little shaky. I am also beginning to restart this season when it comes to my finances balancing the way I would like to pay for the things I need.
The means to which one begins to navigate through these things, for me at least, was after one good cry, a greater focus on God and talking to someone. Often times, I talk to my sister about these things and get advice on how to continue to push through. Keep in mind that different people handle things differently, but the people who know you best being family, friends and God can help you see things in a more clear way than what you are capable of seeing at the time. The best thing to keep in mind through this is, DO NOT SPIRAL! Self care your way to finding your footing and getting some ground to stand on, even if you feel like the ground your on isn’t as stable as it could be. It’s better than nothing and it's more than you had before. Do not be too hard on yourself when it comes to progression into your next season. You are doing the best you can and that’s all you can do! God gives his hardest battles to his strongest people. You are one of those people! (My sister tells me this all the time!) The most successful people had to go through something to get there. So know that you are an amazing and strong person! God is giving you a story to tell!